Thoughtful Thursdays: Letters to Jacob

November 10, 2011

Dear Jacob,

Your dad and I just got home from date night.  Our first since June (?? Honestly, I can’t even really remember our last date night).  Your Maudy met us at the door when we got home, to tell us that you had been crying on and off for about an hour and half.  Yep.  Good job making me feel guilty for leaving you.  Your dad and I came upstairs to calm you down.  You saw us and started crying even harder!  I started rocking with you, and you cuddled up and fell asleep.  As I rocked you, I realized that this was the first time I had watched you sleep in months.  We used to get to watch you sleep every night after your bedtime bottle.  Because of your reflux, we needed to burp you and keep you upright for a good 20-30 minutes.  You would always fall asleep on us.  It was such a special time, holding you while you slept.  Maybe I am just feeling nostalgic for your newborn days since you will be a year old (!) in just a few weeks, but I cherished the time I got to hold and rock you tonight while you slept.  You are growing up so fast.  And, although, every month I feel like you are becoming more and more fun, I also feel like you are growing up too fast!  So, even though I always want you to have an uninterrupted night’s sleep (because, boy oh boy, does it make a difference in your temperament), I can’t complain about those extra moments of quiet, middle-of-the-night, just-you-and-me cuddle time. 

In other big news, you took your first steps this week!  You will only take one, two, maybe three, wobbly steps at a time.  But, they are definitely steps!  For so many weeks, I prayed your dad wouldn’t miss those first, precious steps.  Good timing sweet boy!  In fact, you won’t “walk” for me.  You immediately drop to your hands and knees and start crawling.  But, for your dad?  You definitely want to show off! And I couldn’t be happier.  You only have three days left before your daddy goes back to Brazil.  No pressure.

So now, it is almost 10pm. All is quiet in your room.  I hope you sleep the rest of the night.  And, knowing I am leaving you for 2 weeks (ahh!!!) in just a few weeks…I am really hoping you don’t make this a habit.  If so, I fear for your Mimi and Papaw’s sanity!  Until those 2 weeks come, I pray for restful nights, but should you need a few extra cuddles, well, I can’t say I am going to complain (as long as it is just a few….).